the past few weeks really seemed much longer than it is...4 weeks since ive came back and it seemed like 2 and a half months...

maybe it was because of the exams 2 weeks ago...or maybe i haven't been popping over often to geraldine's to chat lately..or haven't been talking or smsing santo as often and having dinner with him lately..haven't been partying with jo..haven't been seeing the singsoc people often enough..or haven't been going out to town because of the cold..or...i've been thinking about too much and haven't got much sleep...

but it's only been 4 weeks! i really haven't felt that lonely for quite a while already....=/ but then ironically enough, i think i want to be alone for a little while more

anyway. something im dying to scream out. going a lil crazy (>__<) geraldine's hallmate asked me out...?!?!? i'm not naming. i...don't know what to say... okay, i do not deny that he's not the first here..-_- ...but.....he's 46. O_O this isn't right. okay, i do know him and we have chatted a few times, with geraldine..i thought he was AT MOST early 30s..but ive always been bad with guessing ages anyway...

i've always thought she was joking when he was being all shy and blushes when he kept asking about me during xmas break and after but....O_O now..i....dont know how to respond... [and he is a friend on facebook, so dont mention anything in the evil world of facebook please] aiya...how la. i dont like this. ):

i shouldnt have walked past tudor that day....-_-"

ahh...it's not in me to know how to reject people...i perhaps tend to please people too much and can't say no... =x
*pulls out hair*


kaykay....hmm...silly things aside...




jo and esse had quite a fight on a friday night out..so went home with jo and talked...trying to cheer her up..then went over to alvin's and ended up going home around 6am..(>_<) and had to go to manchester in 4 hours time.. (>_<) hmm..realise that im quite the person who'll tend to avoid conflicts..was at quite a loss trying to cheer her up..don't really know what to do if that happens to me..

the tempting chocolate store...



jo's friend actually offered us her family's empty house for 300pounds per month, that's 25pounds a week per person, super cheap. but it was at quite a distance, at kensington where it's a lil complicated especially for 3 girls to live...but still..it's tempting. agnes jones was another option...

but decided to split up in the end and live at andy's place with jo, ger, fend, and andy... (: a real pity queems cant join us too, haha, he's such a sweetie and really has this talent of making us laugh alot, like kozaw. but im sure the lil storeroom is always reserved for him anytime he wants to pop by.. XP



went to nando's for dinner last friday..then had that oh sooo lovely cheesecake :DD went to arthur's after that for a movie, "school of rock", monopoly and ice cream...ben and jerry's and strawberry cheesecake :D thanks arthur, guess me and gerry had been stoning too much and he thinks we really needed cheering up..(>_<)

cut queems hair for him on saturday, and i really screwed it up so badly i broke down. i feel soo sooo bad. T_T i've thinned it too much on the left, and there are some "bald spots" and made it so steppy...>__<;;


he thought it was fine and that made me feel worse...haha the "cousin itt" thinks he feels "liberated" XDD ahh..i didn't know it was so hard to cut someone's hair.... =/ but it was nice, he made me and geraldine laugh alot that day..even when it wasn't very funny, leaving the others O_o" ...but laughing was something that we had been deprived of for a few weeks.....


hmm..i can't explain why..but it saddens me alot seeing geraldine depressed..she doesn't deserve all these after what she had been through...




steve's birthday yesterday, sunday. went to his place with the hk people and had a lil party. was really really fun and was funny :D i think all of us became cocktail guinea pigs by steve as he experimented with the alcohol ratios..and cheeky steve sprayed champagne all over us (>_<)

the first step is always intimidating....
>_<

oh yeah.happy new year.

anyway, don't know what's up with me recently.
haven't been concentrating..i can't. and i know i'm not studying as hard as i'm supposed to. in a thinking mode again i guess =/ just feel too tired.....really not the time for exams. have a bad feeling there are some modules i have to retake in august...
tomorrow's my evil last paper..lectures with the french lady are useless and anything may come out..hmm..on the 16th.

"You don't know what you have until it's gone"? You know exactly what you have when you have it. You just don't realize how much you need it until it's gone.

i'm not even 1/10 as happy as i look.
one more step and i'll really go crazy.